Last year, I wrote a post to cupid threatening his life for being such a bastard. Ever since then, it seems that cupid has been playing around with my love life and so once again, for like the second time, I am dateless for Valentine's day.
At first, I went into a frenzy as I kept seeing the Kay Jeweler commercials and the grocery stores filled with flowers and chocolates. I wanted to jump every couple I saw holding hands and displaying some sort of affection.
I didn't give Valentine's much thought, but with all the reminders around, it was hard to miss what "holiday" was around the corner.
Eventually, after seeing so many pink hearts around, I started to have nightmares of past lovers doing all the romantic things (the things I never got) for their special someone.
Then I slowly started to fall into some sort of depression I couldn't quite understand...
As Valentine's got closer, my emotions went into overdrive and it felt as though Cupid was somewhere around laughing at my expense. Even having such a busy schedule, the idea of having a date plagued my thoughts and as I observed my companions getting married, getting engaged, having babies, and getting into a relationship, my want to have someone to hold was still not happening.
Thus, I believe Cupid jinxed me to be loveless for the rest of my life, but then an idea occurred to me, what if I killed Cupid? Would the curse break? Would Valentine's end? Who knows, but I WILL find out.
For now, I will have to bare with the fact that I don't have a date this year and even if I tell myself maybe next year (which I said last year about this year...), I really shouldn't get my hopes up.
So for everyone who is in the same position as I am, I wish you a Happy let's kill cupid day and for those in a relationship, I say to enjoy your partner because not everyone is as lucky to have someone special in their life.
Hanny the coffee bean