Today would have been your 56th birthday.
I would have made you a chocolate cake, as I normally did on this day.
I would have been able to smile and and sing to you that little song that I take for granted on my own birthday.
Even if it weren't your birthday, I still would have been able to do so many things if you were still within my grasp. I would have been able to tell you the things that are on my mind, the thoughts that have been haunting me. I would have been able to cry on your shoulder. You would have been able to tell me that everything would be all right.
I would have been able to tell you that I love you very, very much.
And I still do, Pipo.
But today, I will not make you a chocolate cake nor will I sing you "Happy Birthday." I will try to find a way to smile, but it won't be because you are here.
If I do smile, it is because I will think of the things and people for whom I am grateful to still have with me. If I do smile, it is because I remember the most cherished memories that I have of your smile, your laugh, your voice. If I do smile, it is because I know you would be proud of me for what I am as a person. I owe that to you.
I love you very, very much, Pipo. I always will.
Your daughter
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Happy Birthday, Pipo
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I was just writing on my next post, a letter to my father, when I needed a break and saw your mention of this at the Shop.
ReplyDeleteFrench, my thoughts are with you today.
Thanks, Legacy.
ReplyDeleteSweet. Made me feel depressed. I NEED ICE CREAM! D; Very sweet though.
ReplyDelete-Jodie
Hugs, hope you are Ok. Lovely post!
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